What I don't want...

So I took a pregnancy test yesterday. I used First Response. The box said that if the test was taken 3 days before your cycle is due there was a 83% accuracy. It was negative! Now I'm just hoping that I don't fall into that 17% and end up being pregnant. Friday, my cycle should show up. Phew!

In the meantime, I have figured out what I don't want. And that is someone who is divorced (like C), someone who has children but who accepts mine (nothing against kids, I love them but if a man has a child, he's still linked with his ex). Women are evil, I don't want a man with baggage! My story is a little easier to accept for a guy because I have nothing to do with my daughter's father, so there's no threat to another guy. He also can't be a mama's boy. I think the relationship should be strong between a man and his mother but I'd like him weaned off the tit. I'm not going to enter a relationship with a guy who expects me to be HIS mom. And then there's the little stuff....he has to have a good sex drive (to keep up with me! ha ha), I have to be physically attracted to the guy, out of the party stage but doesn't mind going out every now and then. He also has to drink socially (I feel guilty when I drink around a non-drinker)...don't get me wrong, I only drink 1-2 times a year! Those are the main points.

I think I've finally made a decision...I'm going to start the adoption process, for sure, this fall. I really want a little girl from Guatemala (it's a toss up between Ava & Tayjah for names). I might try and convince my daughter she wants a brother instead of a sister...we'll see how far we get. I briefly looked into using a donor and getting pregnant myself but...a pregnancy would slow my career down. I'd rather be paper pregnant...no morning sickness, no tiredness, I can still work full-time until the baby comes. Ideal for me.

I guess I better get my little buns to work since I only have to work from 11am to 5pm today. The joys of being self-employed (my parents are out of town for a few days and can't pick Emily up from her dayhome so mommy gets to do it!!).

Have a good Wednesday!